So much to say.

I had to get some pressure off my skull: sensations are racing for the door. Descartes put it nicely: cogito ergo sum. Well: I AM very much, thank you.
I am also muttering about the other implication of this simplicism: I'm the only one of whom I'm sure he is, as I'm the only person that seems to produce thoughts that are undeniable.
There are those who very obviously don't think (and even then: this may be a strategy). The others? If only there were ways of doubleclicking their minds, unfolding carefully chosen words, and look under condition's skirt.

No, I will finally decide on not going the hard way in this post. The way I've been writing is more avoiding where I'm going than getting there.
So here goes: some VERY personal messages for all to see and read.

* Ilse: thank you (and me) for the most intensive sexual experience ever. Even after me rationalizing it, you have given me a great compliment. I will be jealous if any man can do this to you.

* Mike: yes, I am in love with you. I accept your invitation (whatever I write, I'm hearing lyrics. Guess who this song's about). Is june an option? Wondering if your message was a reaction to 'that mail', but the chance seems too likely for it not to.

* Stefaan: I have my opinions. I see things differently. But I do not disapprove: enjoying is always a good idea. Know what I told you about priorities.

* Mien: I will never do so, but I COULD fall in love with you. You are lovable, attractive, seductive and nice when you're not scared - your 'kot' has nothing to with any of that.

* Me: You're too scared of losing all this, and already bordering on self-destructive mode again, because you just like to be miserable (it's easier not to be responsible). Make a NEW cocoon - and IT'S NOT A PRISON. You are not insane, just getting used to feeling.